I am nowhere close to a morning person.... but, ever since I learned that I was #1 on the waitlist, I have slightly more spunk getting out of bed in the morning, wondering if the day will bring the call that I've been daydreaming about since I mailed my application in last September. I am so excited and curious as to who my little girl will be and what her story is. I do have a lot of peace during this time though, and my anxiousness hasn't taken over, thankfully.... I'm enjoying this phase actually. I love the anticipation -- My life is about to be altered in ways I cannot even fathom. I know that my relationship with my daughter will absolutely amaze me. And, I am in awe at my friends and family by how supportive, excited, and anxious they are too. We're all going through this together in our own way. I love it. So, I will patiently await Julie's phone call... in the meantime, I stay busy.
It is helpful that I have the personality that cannot relax until everything is settled -- I am, without a doubt, determined. Perhaps this is not always a good trait, but it is distracting. I continue to paint, organize, and decorate my place. I love knowing I'm doing this for us. It is a good thing that I get a bit more energy in the morning with the wonder of it all because I've been staying up way too late on work nights chipping away.... wonder and caffeine-- its a good combination.